Time to go home

After going through few months of uncertainty, i'm official going to relocate back to my hometown.

Recall back, I have been away from home for the past 6 years and sometimes i just miss where i come from. Alot ppl have been saying that, that small city has no future, boring, outdated, expensive properties and massive traffic jam. But i manage to find a job which i think i would like at my home place, i guess should has nothing to complain rite?

Waiting~ Waiting~ Waiting~ the path in front become brighter, future seems great, i hope this is a right choice for choosing the path to start rebuild my career.

   Just like a coloured rainbow in a black and white photo,
 its like a path leading to a more exciting journey

I did not like my current job where i am lack of motivation and determination because most of the time, my dedication and hardwork just cannot get the needed recognition and job satisfaction from anyone. I come far away to penang and i have alot to prove so i just cannot wait for "time will come".

Penang is a nice place, variety of food, full of Chinese culture and peaceful community. I dont felt like a stranger at herem but its just not my place after all.

By the time i left, i would have spend 10 months at this island city. I have great friends and buddies at here where we have gone for lunch, dinner, movie, mountain hiking, climb mount KK, local trip, birthday celebration and alot more if to mention. All of these, are great things to remember throughout my whole life.

My life is filling with colours and this is what i call a meaningful life filling with precious moments and memories.

Lost track

I think i have lost my patience and focus on what am i doing for quite sometimes. I'm not at my best due to obstacle and problem in front of me. I start to question myself and confuse. Or this is the thing that i am lacking all these times. Is this my weakness? or I am not doing something that i'm good at.

All in all, i felt my capability has downgraded. I have alot of question, lack of motivation and direction. Future seems hopeless. I hate to live in a life full of uncertainty, because i do not expect any surprise, i expect to see what it is suppose to be, the thing that is under control and predictable. I am actually warning myself with my blog...

Full of anxiety

Last year this day, it was 2010 FULL STOP. This year, It is 2011 FULL STOP. Great year to remember. Great Ending for everyone and hopeful for a great year of dragon next year. xD.

Personal Appraisal

Today, when i look back at the small but thick 200 pages exercise book, I saw a list of targets that i have wrote in it. Back to the beginning of the year, I have set 10 targets to be achieved. So far, i have achieved 90% of it and i'm relieve. After more than 15 years of study life, setting goals and direction is useful because now you gonna decide your own successful path and there is no longer parents' decision.(Ofcourse you have to take their advice seriously la, there grew you up from a baby who knew nth)After all, "they ate porridge more than you eat rice la".


My meaningful 200 pages achievement bible.( but i just manage to used up the first 4 pages on it only, xD )

The remaining 10%, i'm still working hard to achieve it by reading alot of books, articles, doing research. I guess some of you might have knew by now what am i talking about. All of this will contribute the the aim of my life time. ( wait i achieve it only will stating out. xD)


No jokes, need spend alot of times lo, if not enough time to use, this is how i do it.................

Recently, one of my colleague manage to answer a question that has never been on my mind b4. When you have siblings that are much older than you for maybe 7-8years and above? You tend to be more mature because you want to have some talking topics with them and also influence by them. I strongly agree with it. During secondary school, i also like that. That's why alot ppl say i'm just acting mature because doesn't want to let ppl say i'm childish. I did feel bored also sometimes for being not childish enough. LOL


Mature doesnt mean with alot of beard and wear sunglasses ok?

Once a while, come back to read what i have wrote few years ago in this blog, i also felt meaningful. Syiok Sendiri? haha, yeah rite

笑话

某日，一辆NISSAN ＳＫＹＬＩＮＥ　ＧＴＲ在高速公路行驶时遇见一辆Ｋａｎｃｉｌ抛
锚停在路边，便好心的伸出援手。
ＧＴＲ：我把绳子绑在你车，然后慢慢拖到附近的车厂。如果驾得太
快，你便闪高灯好让我慢下来。
就这样ＧＴＲ拉着Ｋａｎｃｉｌ在高速公路上慢慢行驶。
途中一辆ＭＩＴＳＵＢＩＳＨＩ　ＥＶＯ．９在超越ＧＴＲ时猛踩空
油挑衅ＧＴＲ。
ＧＴＲ便与ＥＶＯ．９飙了起来。
... 已失去理智的两位“车主”没有察觉草丛有拿着车速感应器的交警。
交警看了车速感应器的荧幕吓了一跳。
便拿起手中对讲机与前面设路障的同事报告：“我真的不敢相信！一
辆ＧＴＲ与ＥＶＯ．９在时速２５０公里并肩的飙着，一辆Ｋａｎｃ
ｉｌ竟在后面猛闪高灯要它们让路。。。

Dream

I have a dream that one day i can travel around the world. While other ppl dreams are to become millionaire, become tauke, become famous, i can say my target is simple. I want to achieve financial freedom and travel around the world without worried. How can i achieve it?

厚埔张氏开基祖来历

　张（Zhāng）姓出自黄帝之后代挥,得姓始祖：张挥。黄帝少昊青阳氏第五子，自幼聪明过人，爱动脑筋。他从星星的组合中得到启发，发明了弓。于是黄帝封挥为专门制造弓的官叫“弓正”，张姓是当今中国姓氏排行第三位的大姓。有人口近亿，约占全国汉族人口的百分之七点零八。

厚埔张氏
【公元1420】乔公生于潮城，后居揭阳卒于正统十二年。
【公元1444年】八月开基祖善德公出生於揭邑外郭林圍大港埔吳舖巷 。
【公元1461年】善德公入赘良田赤珠坑十个春秋 。
【公元1470年】明宪宗成化六年庚寅岁 祖张善德公妣黄太 始遷於霖田都河婆厚埔开基，定居厚埔，开厚埔张氏基业。尊善德公是厚埔寨张姓开基始祖 。
公元1471年】九月十四日善德公迎回母亲节资王太来河婆厚埔定居和父亲乔公骨骸迎回河婆安葬 。
自从善德公由良田出来河婆厚埔定居，次年善德公妻子妣黄太生一长子，名张宗珊，生于明成化八年十五岁早丧，二子名张宗瑛生于明成化十一年，三子名张宗景生于明成化十九年，四子名张宗玟，五女松娘。
依上述史实看来，惟在张姓的族谱中，是尊善德公之父亲乔公为始世祖，在系表中，开基祖善德公列为二世祖。故张姓迁入河婆厚埔，是从乔公开始算起，传 下至今辈行排原文是：
燕翼贻谋远显谟承列长
文经儒士重武纬壮猷光
世德青钱守家声金鉴扬
千秋隆大业万载庆荣昌
张姓子孙，以厚埔寨为根据 地，渐渐向外发展，拓建以下几个村庄：北坑，下滩，乡肚，溪角，新村，岭丰等村 ... 它的由来在此，以善德公之父亲乔公年代计算，张姓迁入河婆厚埔，大约是五百四十二多年前的事。

Vacation time...

Time to go for vacation, Taiwan here i go.... gonna take alot of photo

hope everything goes smoothly in Malaysia

Mummy's day

Happy Mother's day to my mum. It's a stress day for me, as there will be another exam paper tomorrow. Mum, Pls bless me to get good result this semester. All the best for you and everyone of us.

Daniel
8 May 2011

I have nothing

Before eighteen, i have nothing,
After eighteen, i spend 5 years in university getting nothing,
At twenty three now, i have to start thinking,
thinking of how to get everything,
everything that belong to my greed thinking,

In the end, i just want to say, I have nothing and have to start thinking before five years later, i am repeating to blog the same thing, which is i have nothing.

I have nothing

I have nothing... nothing... ...

I set a few targets achievement for 2011, but too bad, i am not brave enough to share it here because it's quite challenging, fortunately it is still have chance to be attainable. I will share the list next year.

After that, i can acheive everything! yeaaaaaaaaa!! but now i have nothing and have to keep going before turning nothing again.


YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! I'm good!

Ending

2010 FullStop

愿望·

还有3分钟，圣诞节就结束了，我想在这一刻许下一个不可能实现的愿望，但愿有奇迹吧！我想xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx,xxxxxxxx,xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx,xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx，谢谢你. 这就是我的愿望。每年我都会期待和等待。。。祝大家圣诞节快乐！

Quote of the day

I always tell myself that i predict my own future because i believe we were borne to decide our own destiny. Rather, i see the future of others but i cant see mine. Maybe i couldnt understand myself at the first place.

Life at Kuching

First week in Kuching

It has been a while since i last come back to kuching, and this time the feeling is still the same, always that comfortable and lovely but added with sight different life this time because it's the beginning of my trainee life of 3 months.

First 2 days was going through the induction course and orientation. While the following few day i was able to know my supervisor and all the department member.I was quite surprise as they were very friendly because if i were them, i will be very worried if a new ppl coming in as he/she might threaten my position level. I hope i'm very wrong.


Lolz... Seems very professional ya? not really that nice actually, damn hot with it


In the cleanroom(where everybody wore like a mummy!) is where i spend most of my working hours. It's quite tough for me actually as there is no toilet inside and the humidity is very low. i felt like almost getting sicked the first few day but it's getting better now. I was able to see how hard they work and committed to their responsibility and no doubt, they gave me alot of psychological pressure. Dealing with the equipments for manufacture processes is really not an easy job. I got to know here was no longer a uni where you can request the lecturer to repeat again, because at here, they will only mention 1 and only 1 time of what they have taught.

Unfortunately i do not have good memory, so i felt this is the most difficult part. One of the engineer who try to teach me how to use the operating system of the tool seems like expect me to know how to use the tool. I think he getting fed up to teach a newbie like me as he also have alot of job to do in the meantime. I can felt that he dint like to explain much and always try to tease me~ LOLZ. but anyway, i shall take it as a method to motivate myself and will not blame him.

The engineers and technicians there is very experience and hopefully they are willing to spare some of their valuable knowledge to me, so that i can have a easier path upon my graduation. i hope they do not take me as a threat for their working position and avoid teaching me new stuff because compare with the way they work, i have no chance at all to compete with them. I just hope to learn more and built more interest in this field. Hopefully, they know this is my only aim.

So this is the first week of working life. Social life? still adjusting~

Lost

I was lost but i realized it. Time to back on track~ It's not going to be easy

Happy Mother's Day

Today, every children would love to wish their mother, Happy Mother's day and of course i'm also one of them. Mum, you know how much i hope you will be able to know how much i love you. I never tell you this but i must let you know, you are the best, nobody can replace you in my heart until i die.What you have done for us will never be forgotten. i stopped at where you left us because i do not want to forget all the sweet memories that you had brought to us. It's too precious.....

Mum, everyday is a happy mother's day for you because you are loved by all of us every moments and these never can end i promise.

I felt better now after tell you these... Hope that every children out there appreciate their mother's love by wishing them a very warm Happy Mother's day.

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Seems never end!

It's just next week before my semester end but unfortunately, still have 1 lab test, 2 report and 2 assignment to submit~~. Then will have final exam again before heading to vacation. Oh yeah, vacation! This will motivate me to keep on studying!

New year, New hope

I guess now is still not too late for a new year blog~

New year come with a new me, life is still very neat in the beginning and hopefully it is not getting any messy in the end like every year did. Fresh target and motivation, new challenges and courageous. New year is just so great with new hope and new chapter in my life. Hopefully 2010 will be a meaningful year that bring happiness and joy to everyone i care and love. That's a new year!

Talking about something historical, last year have been a great year if not the best since my disastrous year 2007.

During 2007, I have been through one of the toughest moment of my life where disappointment, depression, confusion, distraction and a lot more come at once into my brain. You wouldnt want to imagine it as the situation is forcing me to start thinking of doing something insane. Can you believe this? No matter how calm are you, once you are in a situation that you never face before, you would never be you, yourself again. The most pity is when you are depressed enough but still you have to keep everything to yourself.

I have to say, i'm good in keeping everything to myself although i almost vomiting "blood" by doing this but still, i have no choice because i'm not used to telling others about my real problem. I admit i dont really know how to release pressure and tension so i guess if i doesnt change, i might end up getting high blood and maybe.........



VOmit like this lo...







Fortunately the supportive words from my family lift me up and gave me a chance to start thinking something from another perspective which I learned from the book "DARE TO FAIL" i thought it's just a.... hmmm comic? when my brother bought it for me when i was in secondary school but somehow, never thought it would be a source of courage in a once the darkest moment of my life.



"Dare to Fail" Strongly not recommend for those who never failed



Just like waiting for a lift, we thought it's the end of the world when we miss one but maybe another lift beside is opening big for us to take? Why not looking from another perspective? Life might be better

"Failure is just like a roundabout on the path to success" This is one of my favorite term from the book. Well, it's still way to go from success, but so far... so good~~




It might be complicated driving along the road looking for which interchange to take but once you found the road sign, you will be able to found your direction. In another words, you just need a guideline i guess

I have to say i hate someone who keep complaining of how badly their life have been as they do not know how to appreciating it. A lot of ppl told me that by easily getting satisfied, we will never improve and we are just standing at where we are forever~ Well, this is reasonable but how do you calculate "enough"? is it finite and calculable?

In my study, i sincerely had to thank some of my friends who is willing to help me in realizing my problem and gave me a helping hand. I really appreciated it. Other than words of appreciative, i can only promise that whenever you need my help, indeed i will be there.

This blog might be bored or bullshit but i'm still willing to share something from my own experience and i wish those who is facing problems, All the best and keep in mind, there is always a better tomorrow.

It's time to go home~

The End for 2009 Short semester. This semester have been quite relaxing by taking only 1 subject where i have a lot times to do something i like. Normally for long semester, life never been so easy as have to rush for alot of assignments, reports and tests.Some subjects, i dont ever know what am i studying but only know how to solve it. It's a shame but lack of time is what i blame because i need quite sometimes to "digest" when come to accepting new theories or methods. That's my weakness but from what my dad had said, we are like running on a diesel car, pick up might slow, but certainly getting steadier in the end and also cost saving. Doesnt that mean diesel cars are cheap??


yeah certainly if you think BMW Z4 is cheap....


For successful living? hope this is true. Maybe i should get all my wears with this brand~~Diesel stuff?


Going back home
Now i'm looking forwards to go back for a 1 month holiday.It's great even though without streamyx and with a lousy PC. Computer and streamyx is my life in KL, because i did not have any other entertainment but certainly not for Kuching.Even how far would i be, how long would i wait, there is nothing happier than going back because that is my home, where i from. My memory, my room and my stuff will recall me how happily i am when i was a kid. Why didnt i know that? Greatly regretted. I started to discover this ever since my mum passed away. Sometimes, you will only appreciate whenever you have lost something which is just too late.

I used to love end of the year because this is the time where my mum will certainly plan for going somewhere else for my School Breaks.But now it will be heartbreak whenever i think of it because it will no longer be the same. Although she is not around anymore, my dad still bring me for vacation. Maybe this is the tradition left behind from a person who is so important in our life. We just miss the time we have been together. The pain in my heart, never recover......
Like i said before, life will never be the same anymore.....

Even dog also know how to enjoy life?



Vacation is great no matter where is it. You are just adding colour to your life making it a more colourful 1 rather than a plain black and white.is it worth to spend in order to make your life interesting and meaningful? Think about it


And ofcourse a family vacation is much more better to get everyone closer together.


Sometimes, i'm quite inspire by those who like to travel alone, because i dont think i would have that kind of courageous. Nobody to talk with, i might grew insane when i come back! It's pity to travel alone from how i imagine and for those who think this is very easy, have a try! You will experience better as action speaks louder than words.


Action speak louder than words! Go fight...



But everyone have their own interest and maybe this is how they enjoy life with some quietness for a sweet trip.



Seems like i went too far from my topic, but anyway, i am going back home for leisure indeed. After i come back here again, it would be 2010, the beginning of the deadly semester. But before that, FORGOT about it! hahaha

Good days to everyone and take care

Study Weeks

Start from Now 12.17am, 7 Dec 2009, there will be 7 days,168 hours,10080 minutes,604800 seconds from my final exam! This has been a Honeymoon semester for me which is something not really good i must say.I'm have been very relaxing, watched movie and drama, play games, facebook, soccer, badminton and vacation(Skip two weeks for this!) .But i did listen in the class and finished report, assignment.

Somehow, in this last week of the semester, i would have to motivate myself to do whatever it takes to do the best in the Final Paper. Wish me Luck!
After that, it is again a fun and relaxing trip back to hometown... yeah, 1 month holiday, too good to be true..